Monday, February 2, 2009

Lord, Give me Strength...

To keep my cool when another period starts

To keep my chin up when a co-worker announces her pregnancy

To have a good relationship with my friend in spite of her ability to conceive easily and not be jealous of her

To endure my sister-in-law's comments about toilet training

To keep from crying when I see children begging on the roads

To forgive my doctor when he keeps me waiting for 2 hours for a consultation - and then can't remember my name

To make the right decision about treatment

To maintain a good relationship with my husband in spite of all this.

Infertility Is...

Watching your husband playing with your friend's baby and wishing you could give him one of his own

Telling nurses to please take blood from your right arm because the veins in your left arm are all gone because of all the IVs you've had

Avoiding people you haven't seen for a long time because you don't want to hear the question, "Do you have any kids yet ?"

Feeling very left out when your friends start comparing their pregnancy or childbirth experiences

Feeling like the whole town is pregnant except for you

Getting tired of people always expecting you to do things because " You don't have any kids to worry about"

Waking up in the middle of the night and wishing you could hear your baby crying

Wanting to fall apart if one other person says, "Why don't you adopt ?" Easy, right ?

Sometimes avoiding friends who are pregnant or with newborns because you just can't handle the situation at that moment.

4 comments:

Life In Mazes said...

I hope you are finding joy today! I keep thinking that I have been in all of the IF spots your mentioned. God bless you! I am saying a prayer for you right now.

Sew said...

I am so feeling this right now!

Why does my stay at home days have to start when I have a child. Why does my life have to begin when I get pregnant. ???

prayerfuljourney said...

I feel the same way! It's ironic but yesterday I was preaching to my 3rd grade R.E. class that God wants us to be happy with what we have and not be jealous of others...we are not to covet others goods. Hmmm....It's something I have to work on as I travel on this IF journey with God.
I like Sews questions....why does life begin when there's a child on the way? I've definitely spent a lot of time waiting for life to begin. Something else for me to work on...living my life for now.

Kathryn said...

Great post. It is so good to know how others feel the same things I do!
I wanted to let you know I added you to my bloglist...just a little encouragement for ya!

Sew-stay at home now! I do! :) Screw the world and their 'you must produce' attitude :)